i refuse to be tainted.
I am not sure if that is even possible, though.
We will always be tainted and influenced by our given circumstances, but it doesn't have to ultimately define who we become.
I don't believe in blood relatives anymore. Blood has been nothing but a shackle not something that defines family and similar beliefs and morals. There shouldn't be any correlation between blood and family simply because you can't chose these people. They might as well be strangers. That's what it feels like sometimes. That's what family evolves into with time. Just like friendships and relationships, a family can grow apart as well. Why rule that out? It's all the same in the end.
I won't be tainted anymore. I won't expect anything anymore. I won't assume, discuss or try to understand anymore. Not with people. We are the most complex creatures for a reason. What gives us the arrogance to presume that we can attempt to understand another human being? We're always compelled to, though. It helps us believe that we, ourselves, can be understood.
The way I see it, it's a catch 22. We strive to be understood but fail to understand someone else. Will we ever completely get it? Will we want to? Will the fight be worth it?
What would we do with such knowledge?